Clearing up the fog

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I have to share what has happened to me in that last couple of months. Maybe if you are on a foggy part of your own journey my story might help. You may or may not know that I tucked my paint brushes and aspects of my creativity away for a bit while I started Smart Creative Women. I am not sad that I did this because I found my voice and creativity in a completely new way tackling technology, talking to other creative people and helping creatives get clear with where they were headed. I even put together a course that helps you crystallize it, all the while my internal motor was buzzing inside me asking myself how I was going to express myself next. I knew that the answers were on the inside somewhere.

For all of you that have listened to me lament,  question and ask myself what makes sense for me, thank you. Smart Creative Women gets me so excited that I feel like I am jumping up and down on the inside but I also knew that I wanted another aspect of my creativity to make me feel the same way. I was advised to just create, tricky when your day job takes an enormous amount of time. So I set out to sketch and sketch. I applied all the principles in the Smart Creative Style course and it was enlightening. I learned things about myself that I was so excited to uncover. Little pieces of my personality started to make sense like never before.

Here is where my story might help you, IT DID NOT ALL HAPPEN IN AN INSTANT. I am an expert and pulling apart ideas until they are no longer recognizable. I am hard on my own  ideas because when I do commit, I get seriously focused. I also know what it’s like to stick around in “indecision land” for too long. Feeling like you have not hit the right note can leave you feeling like you are in a fog.

One of the main lessons in Smart Creative Style is to trust yourself. If you are in a foggy place and you are not quite sure when the fog will lift, I will offer advice that my mother always gave me, follow your peace. I recently broke down what peace felt like for me and  it was, follow your inner jumping and down girl.  Essentially, the best piece of advice my mother could ever give me and is to trust myself.

I am at a point now when I have a lot of opportunities coming at me. It is exciting for sure, but it can also add to the fog. I also feel like I could be successful and profitable at many of those opportunities, but some of them came with a nagging little voice on the inside that had me asking “Why? Why would I follow that path?” This would lead me to my next line of questioning, “What is your end goal?” OH! THE FOG! Was I not sure or where my goals too lofty?  I completely get that fog is a total bummer, but let me encourage you to keep showing up even if you are not sure what is “next” for you. So many of us keep looking for outside voices to help us out which I think can be fabulous, but it can also make you feel like a hamster on a wheel. While I do believe pieces of programs and courses offer wonderful solutions, you are eventually going to have to trust yourself when it comes to making decisions about your future. Which, if you know me also means you are going to have to love yourself, and quiet those critical voices in your head.

YOUR ANSWERS WILL COME, maybe not all at once, but tuck all your ah-ha moments into your heart and trust that there will be a moment when you will know what to do next and you will see a clear path for yourself. The fog will lift and you will know your next move. Trust. 

So what does this have to do with my own fog lifting? Mine comes in the form of getting my “non tech” creative bug back. I am so full of ideas that the days are not long enough and I am jumping up and down on the inside! (Which, Mom, is my version following my peace!) This is one of my inspiration boards for my next act:

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  • http://artfullycarin.com/ Carin Cullen

    Monica, I LOVE everything about this post! I’m just coming out of a fog myself, and the lifting of the fog only began when I realised once and for all that I am my own expert. Outside experts are good, they have their uses, but they don’t know every nook and cranny of your soul. Only one expert does that and He will tell you what path to take next if you only listen. It may be revealed little by little or all at once, but it will be revealed.

    Your inspiration board looks fantastic! I can’t wait to see how it develops in real life

    • http://www.smartcreativewomen.com/ Monica Lee

      Carin, thank you so much for writing this! I love the “nook and crannies” aspect of our soul AND the “if” you will listen part! Thank you!!

  • Michelle Schneider

    love that inspiration board monica! and i especially love that you included laughter. :) so excited for you and glad to be following along on your journey! i feel like i am on the brink of breaking out of the fog…so happy to have other artists to look up to and inspirational people all around.

    • http://www.smartcreativewomen.com/ Monica Lee

      Oh, I think adding the laughter was subliminal-thank you for pointing it out!!

  • http://www.ronniewalter.com/ Ronnie Walter

    Love your honesty and candor, I feel my toes curling over an edge too..here’s to exciting times!

    • http://www.smartcreativewomen.com/ Monica Lee

      …exciting time, I like that! You are so fun!

  • LeeAnn1227

    You inspire me so much Monica. I needed this pep talk today more than you know. I listen to many of your interviews via earphones while typing on my day job. I go home inspired to create and keep my dreams alive. Thank you so much!

    Lee Ann

    • http://www.smartcreativewomen.com/ Monica Lee

      I am so glad it hit at the right moment! And to think-I almost didn’t post it because it was Presidents Day!

      • LeeAnn1227

        So glad you followed your heart and posted anyway. ?

  • Lindsay

    Thank you for writing this Monica. I’d been thinking that the fog was my very own personal cloud of indecision and procrastination and it’s reassuring to know that you and others have experienced foggy weather too. I’m loving the Smart Creative Style course and can see blue skies on the horizon! xx

    • http://www.smartcreativewomen.com/ Monica Lee

      Hooray!! Blue skies on the horizon, I love that!

  • BJ Lantz

    Good for you, Miz Monica! you know I understand “the fog”! Mine has recently (very recently) lifted in a big way. I’m both letting go and embracing, reaching out for something scary and saying, why the hell not??? Keep jumping up and down, girlfriend :-)

    • Monica Lee

      Do you get fog in Florida, ha-ha! I am excited for you, BJ

    • http://www.smartcreativewomen.com/ Monica Lee

      Do you get fog in Florida, ha-ha! I am excited for you, BJ

  • Meghan Irene

    Excited for you! =]

  • Karen Beers

    Thank you for this article, i love how you explain the creative spirit as jumping up and down on the inside. Know exactly what you mean. Rock on!

  • Bev Devries

    Wow Monica, this is such a timely post. I just quit my awful office job this morning and I feel so free, I am jumping up and down on the inside too! I am going overseas to Greece and Israel in a few weeks and I am believing that when I return God will have something amazingly creative for me to do! Trust, that is the key. I only discovered your website 2 days ago and it is so inspiring and you are a truly beautiful person. I love your style xx

    • Monica Lee

      Trust is the key, and thank for the nice compliment! You never know, maybe God has something amazing for you to do on your travels as well! ;)

    • http://www.smartcreativewomen.com/ Monica Lee

      Trust is the key, and thank for the nice compliment! You never know, maybe God has something amazing for you to do on your travels as well!

  • Melissa AuClair

    Thanks for this post; it comes at an ideal time! I love, love, love your board. It’s so you! So excited for the clarity and peace you have!

    • Monica Lee

      Aw, thank you Melissa, for saying that it is so me!! Eek! Exciting!

    • http://www.smartcreativewomen.com/ Monica Lee

      Aw, thank you Melissa, for saying that it is so me!! Eek! Exciting!

  • Micela Brado

    THANK YOU Monica. I been facing my “fog” for about 3 months now feeling so utterly helpless, empty and lifeless – so not me. I was always this “embracing” change with excitement kind of creature. Yes, your lovely article made me realize that I am simply in transition. To “Trust” the process is my daily invitation to “Free-MySelf”, while liberating myself from everything that’s been holding me back. Reminding myself: There is something sensational BIG and alive within myself, ready to come through. After all, it’s a natural impulse of our existence to expand and growing new consciousness muscles. We behold a reservoir of still unexpressed potentials within us. So the “fog” in a way is an invitation to go beyond what we have done before, and expose ourselves trusting and allowingly and totally to the “New” in Us. “Allowing” is simplicity. “Allowing” is a state of being. “Allowing” us to finally be our true and natural “New-Free-Real-You” endlessly, boldly and loudly al’ways … that’s all that matters. THANK YOU Monica for the nudge :)

    • Monica Lee

      Yes! The transitional space can make us so uncomfortable! I finally just had to “sit down and accept” where I was, so I could quit wrestling with myself! I am so glad this post spoke to you, Micela! Something is around the corner for you!

    • http://www.smartcreativewomen.com/ Monica Lee

      Yes! The transitional space can make us so uncomfortable! I finally just had to “sit down and accept” where I was, so I could quit wrestling with myself! I am so glad this post spoke to you, Micela! Something is around the corner for you!

  • Sue Grilli

    I’m a little late to this party but you couldn’t have written this post at a better time for me. After taking the Smart Creative Style class I too have been in a fog, not being able to decide what direction I wanted to move. I loved the class so much and it provided terrific insight but yet I’m still confused. It just makes me feel better to know that I am not alone in this boat. I will keep trusting my dream. Thanks so much for sharing from your heart.